And a dump of meaningless emotion.
I wonder how I always end up in really shitty relationships. Not dating or anything, just friendships. God, my friendships go so badly imagine how horrible any real dating relationship would go.
I just always end up in these really one sided relationships with people and it sucks because I end up sort of attached but at the same time I hate them. All they ever do is ask me for shit or brag about how great they are, point out my flaws, and making me feel like a piece of shit but come back and tell me I'm great, wonderful and other things.
Then when I finally get mad at them the little shits run off to never be seen again. It makes me so furious. Even when I feel like I've made good judgement of people they always seem to change for the worst. I was taught to stick with people no matter what happens but I can't take their shit anymore after a certain point. Even the longest ones I've ever had ended up with serious backstabbing from the other person.
I can't tell if I'm stupid or just really unlucky with relationships, maybe I'm still too desperate for friends like I was as a little kid.
I am confused.